i dont know if i can even begin to explain the way i feel right now but i'm mostly lost scared and confused i have very few friends i have almost zero support from my family i feel so cold and alone sometimes i wonder if i really am able to go to a new high school or for that matter a public high school i'm so scared idk how to even think straight my stomach feel like its in a bunch of knots that wont go away my head feels like some one just shot a bullet inside it and me eyes feel like they have no color in them. were do i go from here were els can i go what future is there for me in this fucked up yet amazing world